Okay, i admit sometimes my body language doesnt really
reflects the way i really think.

Okay, i hit u by accident,But I apologize.
But what does he do? He ignores it and
continues to complain about it.
And Provokes me, by hitting me in the pubic region.
And the reason? The reason why i apologized.
I know my attitude is not the best, but i its definately better then the way u view things.

Looks at it in my shoes.
At Home, My auntie shows favourtism towards my brother. Scolds me all the time for reasons that i didnt do.
Parents, always ask the same 3 questions everyday. Or at least just my mother.
Brother, takes everything for granted, I have to clean up everything he does, Reluctantly
And in school , its like putting on a mask before going to school.
When i step into class, U start bombarding me with my father's name, as everyone else.
But unlike the rest, they know when to stop.That i can tolerate.
He? Its like every 2 seconds he must really get under my skin.
And he does it totally unprovoked.

The only reason why i am better in cca. Its because the people there,are not the people in my class.
They Respect me, They know what i can really do, They are better then you, They know what i hate doing.
And what i really hate doing is alot of things i do. Now i regret.
I am totally ashamed of everything i have done. Totally Ashamed.
I have learnt my lesson. Or rather,Lessons.
But have you realised your mistakes? I really hope so.

Let me start off with..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Syaiful!!! (Today)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Erra!!! (Yesterday)



Ytd, CCA finally started.
almost everything went well.
AFI Henry And AFI Zul came down to my school! ;D
i dunno wad their doing. But nvm lar.
Becuz first time that we are taking over.
There was quite a confusion
Overall training was went really well.

Today
Didnt do much stuff.

Looks like everything things is settle alrd.
But somethings that had happened, i will only have to regret.
Cant really do much.

Anyway, Today went Jamming with Shafiq, Randy and Randy.
Basically the original D.I.R. We are not a band anymore, But we just jammed for fun
haha, it was very fun. Every song we did, there was alot double bass!
Even for songs like First Date,Face Down and Rock Show.
Wow, my double bass has improved too.It sounds like a machine gun.
Continous. i also tried bass. must learn fingerings!
I liked the place we went, hope to go there again soon.

After that drum lessons. Really enjoyed myself today.
I have improved alot alrd. Even James Said so (He is my teacher)
haha, Gonna buy my double bass from him soon. Only $150!!
So Cheap! And its good quality too!

So when i went home. I saw Sofia ,Zaki and Nadd.
they took their SMRT CEPP course, I think.
So ya, talked to them and left for home.

I am in a heap of trouble.
I let everyone down.
Alot of my friends, teachers and my parents down.
I vented my anger in one of the worst way.
I regretted doing wad i did.
But my other friends dont blame me.
For the reason on why i did it.
I dont feel like talking about it.
I feel so ashamed.
Regret.
But i will take my punishment.
I admitted it , and i will take whatever is given to me.
I will take it like a man.

Today Acually Wanted to watch movies
With Tim,Randy,Zul And Khair.
But then after school, Randy was angry about his girlfriend
(I think)
Then we acually went all the way to Bukit Gombak.
For Randy To Meet Her.
Then i got the impression the his stead is like very
Anti-Social towards him. Then we are all pissed
cuz like we came all the way to bukit gombak
just to meet his girlfriend, But then she nver even do anything.
Really wtf.
Then Randy wan break with her, Cuz he went all the way there to meet her
Then she took it for granted, And like kept talking to her phone instead of him.
Then we went BACK to amk to watch the movie, Turns out we were 10 mins late
and didnt watch.


There wont be cca throughout July. ARGH!
Its like very boring without NCDCC,
and to test out my new skills after the SNCO course.
Argh!!!!
BTW, Congrats to LTA Hozefa for being an NUS Graduate!

Today, Went to Pennin, Bras Basar and Bugis with Randy And Zul
Funny sia, Keep making fun of Zul. hahaha
At Pennin , Zul and I wanted to look for Shoes. Zul Found his.
And i found mine, but doesnt fit me ._. Maybe. :D
Didnt see Aisyah, Although She told me she'll be there. ;D
I also went to see the camera's ;D

Then we walked to Bras Basar , Went to see My Drums stuff
And Randy and Zul's Guitar.
I saw abit of Bass Guitar, I'm starting to have a taste in bass now. HAHA
Saw the cymbal i wanted. I hate my Meinl Set, i want to change to Paiste.
The sound's wayyyy better ;D

We went to bugis after that, A waste of our time.
No Rocker items. All of us complianed.
hahah. Went back to pennin to eat and i brought a shirt ;D
then went home.

I'm Kinda Pissed off.
Just Because is there is like 8 SNCOs now in montfort.
Then the other 5 regular NCOs thinks that we should do all the work.
Me and the rest of the SNCOs agrees that the NCOs has part to play
in making the unit grow further.
This Are some quotes from of of the NCOs
..... Its non of my business, U SNCOs can do it mah.
We all no use compared to u SNCOs.

This is totally crap. We need the NCOs.
Ur still important in playing a part in the unit.
And we NEED each other.


And for the Investiture parade. I think we'll have to postpone it
to a further date. Due To H1N1. Argh. I hope the finalised date will be during early august